No matter what, however,  this problem never really left me......

Yet, as my search was strong enough, I was sure that the Universe would support me and unfold its secrets to me...

In a workshop on feminine energy and psychology the tutor started to talk about astrology.... a subject totally unknown to me... She said that a woman should not only work  with her feminine energy, beauty and magnetism, but that she should, also, study astrology in order to  discover the causes of her own actions in relationship and meet her perfect match, with whom to have a relationship supportive of her development as a human being, as well as one able to make her feel desired. This was exactly what I had been looking all along...

I was so interested in it that I did not hesitate to fly all the way to Greece to attend  the forthcoming seminar on ‘Feminine Wisdom’, where one of the themes was exactly how astrologic types feel and act in love matters. There, my understanding was deepened: we analized our astrological charts and I discovered that, as my Venus- the planet that shows how we express the female side of our nature, our fixed likings as well as our fixed emotional patterns -  is in  Cancer, I was inclined to change my feelings very often. People with Venus in Cancer are the most sensitive of all, they have such a deep thirst for changes in the search for their ideal, that love matters can make them suffer and even become neurotic… After receiving this information, the part of me that I had been looking for came into full focus… I realized that I am a unique human being, that I have a unique way to deal with love and that this is determined by the position of the planets at the moment of my birth…

This event made me want to learn astrology in greater depth and to take charge of my life, as I am no longer in the hands of my uncontrollable emotions.

After learning astrology and, within it, the significance of the synastry between astrological types as well as the ways, in which the planets can influence the outcome of a love bond, I could also understand what had gone wrong with some of my relationships.

I was then even able to see what had gone wrong with my previous relationships.

For example, one of my boy friends had Mars in Aries, which gave him a very strong will power, clarity and incisiveness in his actions. I guess that, at the beginning, I was extremely attracted by his strong and fiery temperament: he made me feel wanted, secure and vital. In the long run however, I would often end up being offended by his rather impulsive and, according to my extreme sensitivity, impatient behavior and he would become easily angered by it. One day he left and I was left in great pain! Another boy friend of mine had Mars in Virgo. I had been attracted to him because of his hard working abilities:  I thought he would be the right man to make a family with and feel secure. Again, however, after sometime, things got sour. I felt locked in and organized to the point that I could no longer dream and be allowed to stay in my dreams. As time passed, he became more and more irritated with my sensitivity: he would get terribly angry and even threatening. I felt very unloved and guilty for not being able to match up to his extremely strict standards of order and punctuality. Again, after a few months, this relationship dissolved in thin air, leaving me distraught and convinced that I was not able to be in a relationship, that I was all wrong.

Along with lectures on astrologic types, we learned techniques on how to control and use the astrologic pattern we belong to, so to unfold its best side and possibilities.

I continue to study this very deep and tremendously interesting subject and, most importantly, I am very happy that, finally, I am able to take control over my life and over the quality of my relationship with my partner!!!

Maria